Why do people like attention so much? I admit, I like attention but not all kinds. Only the ones where I am seen in positive light :)
But even that I have out-grown. This blog is a way for me to keep it at a low. In fact, I find myself wanting to have little to no social life lately. Partly because I don't want attention and partially because I don't want to give attention to the people that indulge in it for no real purpose other than self-glorification.
Now, that is not to say that I don't give credit where credit is due. And if you are a great soul and being, I enjoy your company and I will intentionally give you extra attention. You deserve it.
I am also at a point in my life where a good amount of what is around me is looking BLAH. The parties, the night outs, the people. It's somewhat related to the weather but it is also a check on what is going in around me. A moment to re-focus and evaluate what and with I am surrounding myself with.
So where am I getting at? Not sure. Last night I hardly slept because of insomnia and an allergy that I have yet to figure out where it came from. Maybe I am becoming allergic to all of my surroundings.
POISON!
Some things have become poison to my body and soul. I am poisoning myself. You ever do that? Hurt yourself intentionally by taking part in something that you know does not have a good affect on you.
I do it, at first I don't notice it and then it becomes more and more apparent (in my latest case, it is rashes on my shoulders, neck and back.
Or can I be allergic to myself? Have I become too much even for me to handle? People, please post what do you think?
it takes real courage to cut certain people and social habits (which people can be too) out of your life. The purging only gives clarity and strength. I like the self reflection--also courageous.
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